Rockxorz your sockxorz

Fuck I wish I could tell you who she is.
I wish you could see..
I always tell myself and everyone I'm over you
that I hate you and you're a sucker for missing me
when I'm really the one who missed you
I wish I had another chance.. I know I'd take it
Now I don't know where to go.
So many options and not one of them can make me forget you
you're just so perfect and no one can make me forget that
I hate even the parts I love, or the other way around, whatever
It's late, I wanna sleep without dreams, these nightmares wake me up
maybe I shouldn't do that ever again.
Maybe I shouldn't wake up.
Would you miss me? Say you'd miss me..
Say you regret every word you ever said to me.
Don't make me go first.. I keep saying my wish'll come true... maybe just a little late...?

~

you think i've never felt a heartbeat but you're the one beating me up
id never fall into oblivion before falling in & out of love
but you say you'd rather fall than suffer and fall asleep before you wake
I think I'd take my chances and stop the rythm in your chest

so sleep, dream and when I wake you you'll be safe and sound
and all the monsters gone
I'll be gone before the neighbours come so you can hide inside their arms
& live your shapeless dream again

But you already know, they’ll paint the town with your blood
So give them gallons, and gallons, all for our sake
But what does ‘us’ mean these days?
We’re only sympathetic accidents, like car crashes in space
We were never meant to be, so you is barely a necessary concequence

so sleep, dream and when I wake you you'll be safe and sound
and all the monsters gone
I'll be gone before the neighbours come so you can hide inside their arms
& live your shapeless dream again

you think i've never felt a heartbeat but you're the one beating me up
id never fall into oblivion before falling in & out of love
but you say you'd rather fall than suffer and fall asleep before you wake
I think I'd take my chances and stop the rythm in your chest

so sleep, dream and when I wake you you'll be safe and sound
and all the monsters gone
I'll be gone before the neighbours come so you can hide inside their arms
& live your shapeless dream again

Playing piano alone in the dark.
Writing bad lyrics about sad broken hearts.
Liar, cheater, joker, thief
Words that spell out past mischief
It’s my fault, your fault, we’re all so sorry
Words that hide forgotten glory.
So I guess we’re yellow black and blue
Paint us all a different hue
Smile pulitely, walk on through
Shoulds and shouldn’ts don’ts and do’s.
Make a list of everything
Every love and every fling
Send me in a million years
Just to see if I still care.

I could have been her, I could be yours.
Buried in my own mistakes I’m turning into Juliet’s speeding bullet
I’m a first-class hypocrite
You’re a first-class lying bitch.

You'll rebel to anything (as long as it's not challenging)
-Mindless Self Indulgence

You don't mean it

You need a uniform
So you won't be ignored
You are affected
And so you're accepted

It's time you invested in a bottle of poison
So we don't have to hear about you bitchin and moanin
You think you could afford a fuckin bottle of asprin

Boo fuckin hoo you're not the only one whose live's a piece of shit
And yet miraculously somehow we all seem to deal with it
Did anybody think that you would really seriously slit your wrists
In fact I think that everybody thinks you're seriously full of shit

You don't mean it

You need a uniform
So you won't be ignored
You are affected
And so you're accepted

It's time you invested in a bottle of poison
So we don't have to hear about you bitchin and moanin
You think you could afford a fuckin bottle of asprin

You think you're saying something relevant as you connect the dots
You never realized you have to get in line to suck a cock
You're telling me that fifty million screaming fans are never wrong
I'm telling you that fifty million screaming fans are fucking morons

You don't mean it

The widescreen camera has stretched my mind.
We are all machines running on heartbeats-
you think you see.
Or are you too blind just to notice you don’t?
Tell me if you like it.
Tell me if I do it right.
Tell me do you care
Because I think I’m losing touch
I’m letting go
But I’m still trying to hold on.
I don’t get it.
I didn’t even apply for this position- but why didn’t I get it?
The script is badly written
And I’m highly underpaid.
Take a look at what I’ve done!
I’ve put your name out there.
Give me credit, give me love, give me everything you told me to want.
Give me a last look at your eyes.

~
I hope your golden mirror shows
There’s nothing left to say.
I wish that you’d wake up-wake up
and see the damage you have done.

The hearts
Of the people you claim to love
Mean nothing much to you-
The hearts
Of people you said you care about
Are there for you to break.

I tried, not to let your words get to me
I tried, oh god i tried, not to care.
I tried to never say a word to you
About you
Because there’s nothing left to say.

How worthless you’ve been.. how you made me cry
Your eyes say 'i hate you'
When your lips still say 'i care'
The promises you couldnt keep
The lies you shouldnt tell

I hope your golden mirror shows
That now there’s nothing left to say.
~
Juliet's Speeding Bullet.~ _PaTcHWorK_x

...I'm sick of people lying and backstabbing.
I'm sick of people breaking my heart.
I'm sick of people breaking the hearts of people I care about.
I'm sick of you.
I'm sick of falling in love-
I'm sick of being disappointed over and over again.
I'm sick of regret and missed chances.
I'm sick of these memories.
I'm sick of going weak every time I look at you.
I'm sick of the jab my heart takes when I do.

I'm sick of walking home alone.

*~all around me are familiar faces, worn out places
bright and early for their daily races, going nowhere
their tears are filling up their glasses, no expression

Hide my head i wanna drown my sorrow, no tomorrow, no tomorrow...

I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had
I found it hard to tell you cause i find it hard to take
when people run in circles it's a very very
mad world...

Children waiting for the day they feel good, happy birthday
Gonna feel the way that every child should
'sit & listen, sit & listen'
Went to school and i was very nervous
No one knew me
Hello, teacher, tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me..

I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had
I found it hard to tell you cause i find it hard to take
when people run in circles it's a very very
mad world...~*




-x.

Painkillers don’t work for storms
And when i go to sleep it’ll still be raining, but when i close my eyes and think of things i guess i’m in control.
I have flowers in my room, they draw attention from who’s sitting on the couch,
into the dreamworld i live in and can never get out.
I can capture moments in my head and just repeat, rewrite until i get the image that will comfort me and forget that the wind’s still blowing, outside, pulling down trees, houses, lives and friendships
Of which i’m still, just for now, a part.

Music is the time and energy, and light of my self-created universe,
Of which i can’t gain control but when i press ‘pause’ and listen,
Maybe i can hear myself.